So I haven't written anything in a while. Well, I've written quite a bit actually, but nothing that one could break down and piece back together in any coherent fashion and call a post. And I'm quite honestly fresh out of ideas for posts at the moment. So I thought I'd just give a quick update about my life and my faith and my interests in general.
My mom is home for good, undergoing bi-weekly chemotherapy that usually leaves her wrecked for four or five days and then she's good to go. (I say "good to go" very lightly- she still naps sporadically and any sort of activity outside of the house is tiring for her.) It's difficult to talk about what its like to know someone undergoing chemo, much less live with them. Its hard to see my own mother, who has such a strong spirit, so physically weak. Its hard to recognize what emotions I feel when I see the exhaustion in her eyes even though she's trying to hide it. Somtimes I'm angry and sometimes I'm sad. But my empathy always kicks in and all I want to do is rub her feet or make her tea or do something to make her smile. Which is what a good daughter is supposed to do. I'm just so glad she's home.
I've been working like CRAZY. Up at 7, bed at 11. If I can get to sleep, that is. I'm finding out that the more stress and pressure I have on my mind, the better I perform. But that stress and pressure also affects my sleep habits. Which affects my mood. Which affects my performance. Which happens to affect everyone that I work with, directly and indirectly. So... I'm a bit exhausted all the time.
I'm so happy to finally have real responsibility at work, to finally have a role to fill and more than enough space to fill it. Yes, I'm talking about ice cream. But there's a lot more to it than most people think. I feel silly even typing that, but just take my word for it. The ice cream business is no cake walk. (Pun.)
A side effect of my increased responsiblity at work has been a new vision of myself- especially during my devotional time, God gives me images of my future, and for the first time in my entire life my dreams and my desires are melding together and I'm so excited for all that I'm learning about myself. I actually have the confidence to tell people "I want to start my own interior design business." Not that I didn't have the self-confidence before, but a year ago I wouldn't have wanted to say it for fear that I'd be unintentionally lying to everyone. But now I know that its possible, and I've got more than enough inspiration. So I'm saying it again. One day, I will have my own interior design business. And it will be good.
That's about all I've got right now. Not much on the "reflection" front. I'm going to start ending my posts with my likes/dislikes at the moment. Because these are the things that regularly occupy my thinking. And because I can't think of anything else to say at the end of posts usually. Sooo....
Likes:
-Obama's Slow Jamming the News with Jimmy Fallon (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vAFQIciWsF4) And yes, I did squeal with delight when those curtains were pulled back and Barack walked through.
-Mondays. Because they are my Starbucks Pay-It-Forward Days. I pay for the person in line behind me and hope that they pass the gift along. Try it! Warm fuzzies all around.
-Seafoam Green.
-The Science of God by Gerald Schroeder. "By exploring how religious belief is enhanced by an open-eyed investigation of the world and how honest science demands humility when faced with the extraordinary richeness of life's creation, this revealing book reminds us how abounding is our science, how true the Bible- and how the convergence between the two will inspire you to reconsider both your Scripture and your Einstein."
-Feist's Metals
Dislikes:
-Rum flavored ice cream.
-Gas prices.
-Cognitive Dissonance. Look it up, yo.
-University of Tennessee Medical School. *Sigh*
-Midi Rings.
